I am enraged when I think of my past . How mean did my teachers and classmates treat me?

at 5 years old, my teacher nick-named me as a big-mouth(people who speak too much). cuz I made a girl cried. I accused the girl of not pee-ing. (lol I still dont understand why she is like that. she went into a bathroom, 3 seconds and she came out.)


at 7 years old, I was accused as a thief in front of everyone because I borrowed a book from the school library in October and I forgot I have borrowed the book. In around April, I found the book and brought it to school. my teacher yelled at me in front of all of my classmates (25 ppl)





at 9-11 yrs old, I was isolated my all of my classmates because I was underweight. they claimed I was an ET.I should not be welcomed.





at 12 years old, I went to a new school. I liked someone, and I treated him really nice. People started calling me a s1ut. A s1ut who like whoever sitting next to her, simply cuz the guy sitting next to me was liked by me. (WTF if he didnt sit next to me, i wont have a chance to know him right??)

I am enraged when I think of my past . How mean did my teachers and classmates treat me?
Well, I can understand why you would be depressed or angry.





I could write to you and tell you of my story. You were accused. I was beaten, ridiculed, and shunned.





But hey, I think I feel your pain. You know, life does get better. You got to fight to survive. Pray for understanding, strength, clarity of thought, and the moral courage to forgive those who have harmed you. I did, and I feel much better. Life is much improved for me.





Today, I live well, eat well, enjoy the love of a most beautiful. smart, and compassionate woman, and the company of fine animals, the peace and beauty of well tended gardens and cool shady forests.





I have a good job doing what I love, working with kind and interesting people who treat me well.





I enjoy good music, books, long treks, boating trips, and rides in trains.





I love life, and hope you can find this love and happiness and peace too. I pray for your recovery, and trust G-d (the Higher Power of your own Choosing) to show you the way.
Reply:You need professional therapy. Nothing will change until you do.
Reply:Why are you allowing others to define who you are as a person?? Childhood sucks, you aren't the only one with this same story. Once you're out of high school all that crap is behind you, so why are you still living in the past?!?! Let it go and move forward with your life. These people are meaningless in your life right now...who cares what they think..or thought back then?? "What doesn't destroy me, makes me stronger"....become a better person to show them that they did not break you.
Reply:1st lesson


take everything anybody ever told you, good or bad, and toss it out the window. if your happiness depends on the acceptance of others you'll continue to feel like you do.





2nd lesson


be your own person and people will seek you out when they see your individuality push through without regard for their petty talk.





3rd lesson


when you're needy and dependant you're lost and it shows. be yourself, it's all you got so it will just have to do love.
Reply:WOW you sound angry, calm down and breath, than come up with a good healthy solution. good luck
Reply:Almost everyone experiences bullying/name-calling throughout their school years. People were immature. Ive been through it myself.





Youre 19 now, dont let what these people say get to you, its all in the past. You cant move forward if you keep looking at the past. Instead, use this to become a stronger person. Find your inner strength, and show more confidence, and be yourself. People will love you.
Reply:You know, hon....everyone has stories like that....poor me, ppl treated me badly as a child. Grow up and let that crap go.


You have your health, a life and hopefully a roof over your head. Your 19, start thinking like it.
Reply:I went through stuff much worse than name calling in school, and it seems like you're bothered because of a bit of name calling. I know it hurts. I'm 20 now and what I went through still bothers me sometimes, but you have to move on. It's pointless to keep worrying about it. Especially because you only got called names. If you'd been through some of the stuff other people go through then perhaps you'd realise these 'problems' are inconsequential.
Reply:You poor thing.
Reply:people have no idea that the way they treat people can have a devastating effect on that persons life. Children learn what they know from others around them so i dont think that they would be the same person now. Just take pride in who you are and be proud of being a lesbian. It is shameful that only women are s##ts. I know a few men who could be called that, probably myself included when i was younger.
Reply:You can't hold on to the wrongs of the past.....for crying out loud pick your *** up and go on with your life. You will never accomplish anything let alone be happy with your self with your why poor me attitude. The world is what you make of it, no one owes you anything, as we all have trials and tribulations.
Reply:In order to get past all the negativity, since it cannot be undone, you personally will need to shift your perspective from *victim* to *SURVIVOR*. Right now, you are stuck in the role of victim, and nothing anyone says or does can change that, unless/until you allow the shift in your own mind.





YOU CAN do it, and ONLY YOU have the ability to.
Reply:Yeah don't worry I don't blame you either... But don't worry it'll have to stop at one time or another right? Well just because someone called you names because you are who you are then that's wrong yeah anyone would get mad about it but, heck I am, still mad sometimes too but, it's much more better if you tell people about it that way your anger goes away a bit by bit, so yeah don't worry too much about what people say they only say that because they don't know you yet...





And they don't seem to want to know or seem to care to know you at all it hurt's alot but, someday you'll find a time in which you'll end up laughing becuase of this... You just need a good friend that will laugh with you not at you... So yeah if you have any other problems just let me know okay?


ohanianimeangel@yahoo.com this is my e-mail...


And don't worry it's okay to be different...


And besides people don't understand what it's like to be different and don't worry I happen to feel the same way too sometimes... But, don't worry if you tell and talk with another person then your going to feel better and well yeah then see you around later...





And oh god bless you on what it is that your struggling on as well... And have a nice weekend...
Reply:well most of the things are dumb, childish insults, and you should ignore them. I don't like when people are mean to to other people just because of their sexual preference. Hang in there. It'll get better. Just keep looking for the right mate.
Reply:The best thing you can do is to, forget all that has happen. if you do not, it will eat at you, until you cannot take it any longer.





That is why they call things that has already happen the past. that part of your life is over gone, so let it go. all the worry you can do in the world, will never change the way things were in the past. all you are doing, by worrying is make your self sick.





Forget it. and look for things to get better in the future. you say you are now 19, you will not have any type of childish people to bother you, any longer.move from the town you were in, if need be, but start another life, where there are new people, you will find that things will not be the way they were before.





Forget your past! and start a new!





have you tried to make any friends on the Internet? you will find that, may help you a lot. in that way, you will then have someone to talk too. and help you with things. give it a try.





try some chat room, or maybe even find someone you can talk to by using email. you will be surprised, how much it may help. you may even find a boyfriend, on the Internet.





I hope things get better for you,





Take care,
Reply:it seems like everyone and their brother has answered your question or at least replied. not that i can do any better but i'll try. the fact that your teacher acused you of stealing when you were seven is stupid. what grade were you in then, second. like a second grader can even think of doing something like that and not disappointing mommy and daddy. everything else that happened is normal. you just reacted differently. it's human nature to criticize what you don't understand or whats different. my guess is the teacher was just an *** hole. when i was in fifth grade everyone called me it. after the movie. i still don't know why. i'm not disfigured or ugly. i am cute to be honest so there was no reason for their tauntings other than they could and i would react. i don't know what else to say. read all the answers except for the dumb ones and combine them all. it's time to move on with your life and leave the past behind. you can't change what people have done to you before but you can do something about the way people will in the future. stand up for yourself and don't back down. have a little faith in yourself and maybe people will see that and treat you differently. i hope this helps. i know i prolly said stuff people already said so give them credit first.
Reply:don't get to shortcut.. think and think this problems deeply.. sees the future in what actions will you take.. considering the future is much at your hand or better to think to get to future: i.e. think that you will do something or gain something that makes you happy in coming days or weeks.. that way also threats me well.. makes me happy and get me stand up again altough thousand of them still coming.. cause no problems no fun.. havee it, face it and solve it.. and then you will be happy.. trust me..
Reply:Dude, I wish you the best...but get help, k..........................................
Reply:Thats why i dropped out.
Reply:Everyone had bad memories in the past so i think you should forget and start fresh. Just make a friend and ignore all the comments. Its really hard but i guess if you want a better life, you should do it!
Reply:Um, sounds like you have some issues, seriously consider seeing a therapist.
Reply:yea, sounds like a typical school life.


move on and get over it.
Reply:Grow up if you are 19 get on with your life. Are you still in High School? If not move and start over where no one knows you.
Reply:Hello Slip,





I love this outline you've created for yourself. This gives you some perspective with why you are where you are today. Now do one with positive things that have happened in your past. ANY thing that made you smile/ feel good about yourself. When you hear your teacher's voice in your head calling you "a big mouth", literally say,


"it is healthy to speak my mind". "I speak my truth". If you change the voices in your head as they hit you, your brain will recognize that it no longer lives by those past commands. You are who you want to be, so be it.





I just heard about something that might interest you called NLP(Neuro-linguistic Programming). Research it, you might find some truth in it.
Reply:people can be so stupid. i think that when everyone has been holed up together all their lives in the same place at least most of them are tw@ts and they cant accept anyone even remotely new. i moved hose from somewhere 20 miles down the motorway and people said i had an accent! wtf is that about? im an individual and most of the ppl i know follow each other around like lost sheep and then they pick on me because i arent like them. i say again; wtf? they are all pathetic and i dont need them. sorry gone off the subject a bit. its not just u though.
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